Sometimes i wonder if people even give a shit about me.

Its 2.41am and i am not asleep. Obviously something is disturbing me.

my mind. Today, wild thoughts of settling this irritating problem in my life came knocking into my head.

This is the problem that wasn't created by me (perhaps indirectly?).AND I don freaking hell know why do i have to accept this fate

And i SERIOUSLY i have no idea when this "rainbow after the storm" will ever come into my life

I dream of that nice rainbow. But the ugly storm always blew it off.
No matter how optimistic someone can be, this someone must have already tell himself/herself all the shitt sideeffects.

The longer it drags... The more i want to give up.

Totally an awful day.

I just wanna go somewhere free of burden. 
As of today, i know that i have to be strong because there is people sacrificing for me.
To end it off. Fk the fate of mine.
I wonder if they ever knew this would happen, will they still allow this misery to worsen?