I am really angry about it

It has been something that i really wanted for years

this was the don know how many times pursue to that thing

I really wanted

you just could not understand how much i really want

just like how much you wanted your stuff

I really got very sad and even cry

I really got damn down

and my mood went really down

Those reasons you gave i could simply changed it to excuses

I HATE IT

I have NEVER been angry and SAD like that before

I have been controlling not to be DESPO for it

but i really cannot refrain myself from really WANTING it

It is my simple dream and wish

wheneve i thought of it

I would start to become teary

I did try to control but they fell

I didn want that too

I have been telling myself to stop thinking about it

But whenever i see ham ji peng and books i could not stop to let myself think of it

I have been thinking

I think i would just carry on my plan

next year

If you just throw it away

And i will make you feel GUILTY for hurting the innocent

If you want to throw it away so much

I would rather you throw me away with it

i don wanna jurt the innocent too

i don eevn know how to talk to you

When i see you

those things you tld me would come back to my mind and i will start to be very sad

Ham ji peng has been my refuage

If anyone throw him away too

I will throw myself away

why can;t you think from the other point of view

You have only been on your own thinkings

What about me?

What is inside my mind?

Have you tried to know when i

REALLY INSIST ON WANTING ONE?

Maybe one day........